~Jumbled Up Thoughts II~

this is the last time
that I’m ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time I will fall
into a place that fails us all inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I’m always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I’m ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear to see

still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down come around
I’m always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in give it up
and then
take a breath make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I’m always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

[Verse 1 - Timbaland]
I ain’t got no money
I ain’t got no car to take you on a date
I can’t even buy you flowers
But together we’ll be the perfect soulmates
Talk to me girl

[Bridge - Keri Hilson]
(Oh) Baby, it’s alright now, you ain’t gotta flaunt for me
If we go dutch, you can still touch my love, it’s free
We can work without the perks just you and me
Thug it out ’til we get it right

[Chorus: Keri Hilson & (Timbaland)]
Baby if you strip, you can get a tip
‘Cause I like you just the way you are
(I’m about to strip and I’m well equipped
Can you handle me the way I are?)
I don’t need the cheese or the car keys
Boy I like you just the way you are
Let me see you strip, you can get a tip
‘Cause I like, I like, I like

[Verse 2: Timbaland]
I ain’t got no Visa
I ain’t got no Red American Express
We can’t go nowhere exotic
It don’t matter ’cause I’m the one that loves you best
Talk to me girl

[Bridge - Keri Hilson]
[Chorus: Keri Hilson & (Timbaland)]

[Verse 3: D.O.E.]
Baby girl, I don’t got a huge ol’ house I rent a room in a house
Listen baby girl, I ain’t got a motorboat but I can float ya boat
So listen baby girl, once you get a dose of D.O.E. you gon’ want some mo’
So listen baby girl, when I make it I want you there, want you there, want you there, yeah

Your body ain’t Pamela Anderson,
Its a struggle just to get you in the caravan,
But listen baby girl,
Before I let you lose a pound I’ll buy a bigger car,
So listen baby girl,
I love you just the way you are, the way you are

I’m holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I’m hearing what you say but I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around, and say…

that it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

I’d take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it’s nothing new
I loved you with the fire red
Now it’s turning blue, and you say…
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid…

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

I’m holding on your rope, got me ten feet… off the ground…

It’s 5a.m now.. And I still can’t sleep. Ate naan cheese with dad, and it doesn’t seems to be digesting.. And since my Desperate Housewives has not finish loading yet.. I shall take this opportunity to say what I wanted to say for the past few weeks…

The past three weeks has been.. hmmm.. different for me?
Funny, I dunno whether to call myself lucky or not..
Damn you stewpid burst ovarian cyst and inflammatory appendix.
Pain as hell.. The horror.. The torment..
Painkillers were like chocolates at that time…
I love them. I crave for them.
Well, the scar doesn’t really bother me. I find it quite cute actually.. Haha. Ok, fine. I might be a little weird.
On the bright side, timing was perfect.
If it was a day earlier, I think the pain would make me drown myself in Pangkor…
And if it was a day later, I might have suicude in Kuantan there itself. Haha..

But… The luckiest part.. =) Is my loved ones.
I never felt lonely through out the whole phase, because I realized who are the people who actually cared..
No matter a phone call, a  msg, visitings, or just about anything.

Just wanna say thank you..
My family who worried the most.. =) Who took care of me the most..
YoonHan, who has been there for me most of the time..
Beloved relatives & friends who cared & visited..
And not forgetting, those who took the effort to call or msg. It’s the thoughts that count..
Thanks everyone. For the concern, the fruits, the flowers, the gifts, etc..

Special thanks to mum, for her wonderful delicious cooking for the past 3 weeks till now.. *yum*.. Feel like her baby. hehe.
Dad & Jasmine for cleaning the house.. & clearing the hsechores just for my comfort..
Kak Amu, who constantly msgd me bout my health =) She’s like my mum! Can’t wait to see you..
And to YH, Teetee, Mike, Joey, Kenneth, Dean, May, Anne, James, Joe  - who was there almost everyday.. Thanks for the food, the laughter, the DVDs, the modemn, the McDs, the nail polish, the junk food, the surgical gloves deco, and of course, the support..
Hehe, it’s weird saying this, but the hospital days were fun because I had you guys. I do miss room563. =P Should have had a BBQ or something there. Haha.

As painful as it was, all of you made it much easier for me..
Hope i didnt miss anyone out..

For now..
Well.. Yah, still get tired easily most of the time.. Wound infection, bloated, walking weird, weak, blablabla, I don’t care..! As long as the worst part is over, I’m fine with anything else..! =)
Hmmm.. At least I get the whole April on MC! Another 2 more weeks before going back to work. Lalalalala.

K la, i shall go do something more productive…

Tataz!

-= z~may =-

I’ve been so lost lately.
I don’t really understand baby.
Where did I go wrong?
I wanna talk to you.
Please call..
Where do I begin with you?
After all that we’ve been through..
I don’t think that it would be right if we
got together so suddenly
I wish that I could take back all of the things that I said
and replace them with simply ‘I love you’ instead

You didn’t wanna say goodbye..
But you never really seem like you wanna try.
But I only wanted you to stay,
and then I let you just slip away..
If you didn’t listen to your heart inside,
then it really doesn’t matter what was on your mind..
and if you need me then tell me why..
Girl, I never meant to say goodbye..

I think about the past baby
Why we couldn’t make it last, lady
I know you still have doubts
But I’m gonna prove that we can work things out
I wanna be sure that you know what you put me through
and reveal that you intend to never let me down again
It’s clear to me and I can’t ignore
that I have to give you something I couldn’t before

I didn’t think that we would come to this
Your eyes, your face, your smile is what I miss
Why did you wait so long to take me back?
It’s all a simple misunderstanding

You didn’t wanna say goodbye..
But you never really seem like you wanna try.
But I only wanted you to stay,
and then I let you just slip away..
If you didn’t listen to your heart inside,
then it really doesn’t matter what was on your mind..
and if you need me then tell me why..
Girl, I never meant to say goodbye..

Lips of an AngeL @->—
Love this song! =) from James’

Honey, why you calling me so late?
It’s kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey, why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper cause I can’t be too loud

Well, my girl’s in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It’s really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

It’s funny that you’re calling me tonight
And, yes, I’ve dreamt of you too
And does he know you’re talking to me?
Will it start a fight?
No, I don’t think she has a clue
 
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

-= by HiNd3R =- 

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Clumsy ^-^

Can’t help it
The girl can’t help it

First time that I saw your eyes
Boy you looked right through me
Play it cool but I knew you knew
That cupid hit me

You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I’m fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I’m fallin in love
So in love with you

Can’t breath when you touch my sleeve
Butterflies so crazy
Whoa now, think I’m goin down
Friends don’t know whats with me

You know, this isn’t the first time this has happened to me
This love sick thing
I like serious relationships and 
A girl like me dont stay single for long
Cuz everytime a boyfriend and I break up
My world is crushed and I’m all alone
The love bug crawls right back up and bites me and I’m back

Can’t help it
The girl can’t help it
You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I’m fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I’m fallin in love
So in love with you
so in love with you
so in love with you

-= by F3Rgi3 =- 

Went to Brunei yesterday… Gaston, May, Hiew, Joshua & I.
Spent rm50 on - a "Jollibee Hotdog" (bout rm5), and the rest on imported CHOCS!!
Yes chocs choc chocs..! All of us bought like we never ate chocolates before..
Cadbury Marble, Topdeck, Hersheys, more Hersheys, & even more Hersheys!
Hehe. I’m lovin’ it!

In the evening, went to Curtin Carnival till night…
Main purpose is to see IJ perform again.. =)
Another great show from them last night. *applause*
The other bands were not bad too..
Was amazed by the last band, the girl vocalist..
Her voice, Power chin-chin! damn amazing..

K.. I’m just bored. Very.
Shall go feast on my chocolates.
Muahaha.

-= z~may =-

Yes! So proud we finally explored ONE of the caves in Sarawak! *applause!*
Freaking tired, but very good experience..

Last Wed, we wanted to go to Lambir National Park & Miri Crocodile Farm.
But then, we wanted to try something more fun. So we chose Niah instead!
2 hours drive from Miri, we reached there at about 1pm..

Raymond and Hiew drove. On the way, we stopped by…

There’s a pet shop at the end of the food court.. So, we jacoon KL and KK people.. had some laughs..
Snakes, rabbits, iguanas, mice, hamsters, weird lookin fishes, eels.. U name it, they got it!

This is a HUGEE weird looking "Sleeping Eel"… Was so tempted to scream at it…

Joshua’s favorite "Smiling Catfish".. Cute huh!   And dis is YH’s Best Friends, snakes!

This is my Favorite! Don’t mind keeping one! It’s direct-translation from cantonese, "waterfish"… But.. I didn’t know I even look like it. Hehe. [edited by May] Never know I can look so silly.

Okay, enuf of weird animals.

Then we headed off to Niah National Park. After all the registering etc, the six of us were darn excited for the journey!
[Clockwise: Hiew, Josh, Me, May, Gaston, Raymond]

First, we had to take the speedboat.. Wee!!! Butttt.. It’s only across the river. Cheh!

So… The journey begins…

Everyone was restless, ‘bersemangat’ !

See how excited Ray is… =)

We were like Waaa.. Wooo.. Aahhh.. Jumping ere and there… Even the "mini" caves amused us..

Gonggoks mating..! They’re all over the place I tell you!! *yuckzzzz*

The cave’s beautiful… Amazing…

Still not THAt tired.. We were determined to reach the last stop, the "Painted Cave".. Which is like 4km plus more… So up and down the stairs..  walk walk walk…

This scene is like those in the movies.. Scary. Anyone watch "The Descent"? A horror show with monsters in caves.. Yah, it looks like that! But think Niah monsters not interested in us..

Okay, MAYBE we’re kinda tired already.. Look at Ray’s face.. Aih. But longgg way more! Where’s the Painted Cave! !@#$^?$!

At one point of the journey, there are no pics.. Cause it’s pitch BLACK! Really really dangerous. And we smart asses, had only 1 torch light. Luckily 2 of them had hi-tech handphones as torchlights. Real real dark.. The path was.. Only wooden planks, no railings.. Not wide, quite narrow. Only 2 person can squueze in.. If i were to push someone down, they’ll sure DIE. And of course, stairs.. Creepy man. They should do sumthin about it..

After the DARK walk.. We FINALLY reached the Painted Cave.. But to our disappointments… It’s like shittt! Pure crap I tell you… Only an area which was fenced up.. I can barely see a thing. Painting, my ass. If i close my eyes and paint, I can paint better than that… After alllll the hard tiring journey.. We made our way back to the starting point… Sigh…

The way back, we took another path.. Wanted to visit "Rumah Chang", the Long House!.. But the path was SUPER longggg and BORINGGGGG.. slippery unstable woods to walk on.. Aih! When we finally reached Rumah Chang, we were quite amazed.. It was as if, they lived in a world of their own. The families were bathing in the river… They have their own school inside… Own football field.. I wonder how often they get out from here. 5km walk through the jungle to get out!

After that, we made our way back out… Bye-bye Cave..

4 hours, 10km walk.. Great experience, won’t mind doing it again =)

-= z~may =-

Curtin Miri’s prom night last Saturday…
I’m so lazy to blog, so I forced May to write =P
http://mayz85.blogs.friendster.com/the_perfect_life/2006/08/prom.html
The prom was boring…
But my friends are wonderful, I had fun! =)

I don’t know why I miss you so much. I don’t know why I still feel your touch. You left me feeling high and dry. With nothing, nothing but the question, ‘Why?’. Yeah you, I guess you had another direction. And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me today, I’ll say that I’m fine. But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice, it’s just a lie. You knew what you had. You still walked away leaving me in this mess. My love for you is deep and meaningless

You knew what you were doing to me. And I, I guess I was too blind to see. Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad. But I’d do it again to relive what we had. Damn that’s sad. There are many things left to remind me of a love that I just cant leave behind me.

-Rooster-
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I woke up early this morning around 4am with the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate. I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep. But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake. Ever since you found yourself in someone else’s arms, I’ve been tryin’ my best to get along. But that’s okay. There’s nothing left to say, but…

Take your records, take your freedom. Take your memories I don’t need them. Take your space and take your reasons. But you’ll think of me. And take your cap and leave my sweater, cause we have nothing left to weather. In fact I’ll feel a whole lot better. But you’ll think of me…

I went out driving trying to clear my head. I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left. I guess I’m feeling just a little tired of this and all the baggage that seems to still exist. It seems the only blessing I have left to my name… Is not knowing what we could have been, what we should have been. So…

Someday I’m gonna run across your mind. Don’t worry, I’ll be fine. I’m gonna be alright. While you’re sleeping with your pride, wishing I could hold you tight. I’ll be over you and on with my life…

-Keith Urban-