~Jumbled Up Thoughts II~

Last Week
Went to Serendah, Rawang last weekend with Irene, ChunShung, Amanda & Yvonne =)
It’s in the jungle, we stayed in a 2 storey glass house! Damn cool..! =)

It’s just nice for lazy people who like camping…
No need to find firewood, no need to built tents, no need to worry bout food =P but the toilet is scary.. There’s no roof, only brick walls and trees surrounding, with large pebble rocks for the floor.. Can’t help but imagining some psycho peeking in while bathing. Eee.

There’s also a swimming pool nearby! =( But too bad I missed it =( The first day, noone wanted to swim with me *hmph*  And I ddnt dare to bathe at night.. The next day, woke up late =( Imagine swimming in a pool in the forest! Cool right.. *shuckz*

At night, Ben (Amanda’s bf) & YH came over coz they were worried. Good also la, more company! Ha-ha. YH got stung by a furry catterpillar! Damn funny~ but poor fella.. (I mean the catterpillar)..
Then we chilled & played cards.. and laughed laughed laughed…

The next day, all of us went to Petaling Street! PhikJin came along too! =) YH & I got a pair of shoes each.. And i got sunglasses! Yippie! Walked whole night, just so glad get to spend time with them =) *miss~miss~miss~!*

This Week
Bloggy Bloggy Bloggy.. Save me from housechores~~! So tired =(
Was cleaning up the house lately..
Whenever I do, there’s not one time where I didn’t curse the stupid maid for running away..
And making my mum maid-phobia (Is thr a term for it?)..
So much more cleaning to do compared to my old Cheras house *sulk*
Plus CNY is here, so everythin must be SPARKLING clean~~

Neway.. Juz came back from the market *yawn* (mum shouting downstairs, asking to hang clothes)
Making curry for dinner today, Teetee & Mikey coming down =)
And, oh! This CK!! Argh.. So geram with him.. Went down Klang to return his pup.. Long story.. But sigh~.. Poor pup..

Oh yah, I baked butter cookies ystrdy! *yay* =) Hehe.

Dotaism? New word from CL Enjoyed that session with her! & Keni, my partner! =)
Hmm.. But dota’s evil… I begin to hate dota. It sucks. It ruin relationships.
A part of me soooo wanna join them & feel the adrenaline rush..! Killing & screaming..
Another part of me hates it soooo much.. Seriously.
Feel so negative recently. Wanna cheer up & be bubbly, but somehow, I’ll come accross reasons to hold grudges again. One after another. Don’t wanna believe them, but sumtimes I just have to. Makes me don’t wanna open up to ppl nemore.. *zip* Are girls’ instincts always true or false?
Never wanted to leave here so badly. So so badly. And start anew.

K.. Got to go change the bed covers.. *yawn*..
Maybe I’ll just laze on the bed awhile b4 i change them.. Zzzz…..

-= z~may =-

I was young but I wasn’t naive. I watched helpless as he turned around to leave. And still I have the pain I have to carry. A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried…

After all this time, I never thought we’d be here… never thought we’d be here. When my love for you is blind, but I couldn’t make you see it. Couldn’t make you see it that I loved you more than you’ll ever know… A part of me died when I let you go…

I would fall asleep, only in hopes of dreaming that everything would be like it was before. But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting. They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor.

After all this time, would you ever wanna leave it..? Maybe you could not believe it that my love for you was blind. But I couldn’t make you see it… Couldn’t make you see it that I loved you more than you will ever know. A part of me died when I let you go… And I loved you more than you’ll ever know…. A part of me dies when I let you go…

-= LifeHouse =-

Weeee!! Went KLCC yesterday… So happy to finally see dumbo Anne again =D
At least she didn’t fill up her excuse jar THIS time!
Datz not the only fun part ! Horny Porny Vern came along too! =D Like the old times..
Alex Boy was suppose to come.. but poor boy was sick =( *get well soon!*
If not, it’ll be full "family gathering"! Gosh, time really flies…
Still remember UFP times… like it was just yesterday..
Coming July.. Teetee, Anne & I  have known each other for 4 years!.. 4 wonderful years..
Neway, Dear & Mikey were there too..
Then, *teehee* we kidnapped our beloved Anne to Inferno, Subang!
And made her play Dota!! *hahahaha* She of course, became our feeder =P
May & Joe joined us too.. Haha.. Our Dota gang explanded so much! Weee!!

I got my offer letter to Miri two days ago.. *big relief~~*
Was sooo worried and curious why I havent get! *Phew~!*
Butttttt… =( Soooo geram, Joshua’s application didn’t make it =(
How can dat be.. =( Sigh~ Was so happy that we have 3 ppl stayin together.. Now left us 2 girls..
Hope they faster settle it laaa… Still can go wan… Right, May? =( .. *pray* *pray*
Just realized I got one more month only.. Excited, looking forward, yet, heavy hearted.
At stressful times, really really really wish time flies so I’ll be there dy!
But at the same time.. Shit la…~ How can I leave ere.. Never left home before…
How not to see Jasmine.. Honey.. Jackie.. Zoey.. They’re gonna make me worry sick..
My dear.. I’m gonna be soooo lovesick over there.. Gonna miss you tonnes tonnes tonnes..
Wonder what will u be doin ere..  Counting down the days to see & squish squash you again..
Miss all my Metro friends.. Miss hanging out in Collg.. Studying in Metro.. Hanging out in subang.. Miss Anne & Teetee the most.. *sob* *sob* They have been my strongest pillars to cry on.. to laugh on.. Who knows me inside out these few years..
and of course my best friends.. Irene comes back, Amanda & I leave. Haih!
Miss the sense of belonging here.. and my family.. cousins.. gatherings =(
Sumtimes I wonder.. Will I regret goin there?… I sendiri cari pasal to go..
Dunno la~~ There’s a huge magnetic force tagging me to go..
Feel it’ll change my life lor.. For the better.
Like May said, I’ll realize who I love most, learn to miss their presence & start to appreciate ppl..
Well.. counting down.. 36 days more to go! Enjoy enjoy enjoy Semenanjung while I can…
Yippie! Mike & Teetee coming to KK for dinner *ciaoz!*

-= z~may =-

Yesterday was Jasmine’s BBQ for her advance birthday…
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOOK!! =D
Lesson learned - Do not buy EXTRA/MUCH food for Kid’s gathering..!
I’ve never seen sooo much leftovers from a BBQ before.
The kiddos barely touched the food.. So we gobbled gobbled gobbled up.
We had chicken wings (3 diff recipes!), sausages, lamb, potatoes, corns, stingrays, sambal sotong, salad, mee siam & APPLE CHEESE CAKE (superb! *yum~* ) !!
8 kids + Dad, mum, me, YH, Teetee, CK, Andrea (CK’s fren) + Uncle Kelvin & Aunt Serena = 17 ppl!
Uncle Kelvin & Aunt Serena brought Ralphie along =) [their HUGE labrodor] & i really mean HUGE!
And CK’s pup was still here.. So it was like "Dog Lovers’ Gathering" too =)
Neway, bought a pencilcase & a wallet from Radioactive for the Birthday girl =D
I liked it a lot! Gonna curi from her.. *wuahahaha* =P

The preparation & cleaning up was sooo so so so so so tiring…
Late night, Teetee & I chatted for quite sum time..
Called Anne, & we had to stick our heads on to the phone coz the loudspeaker was so soft.. [Should call it softspeaker..] *miss her!*
While waiting for Mike to arrive, can’t help it but fell asleep.. Dead sleep!
He arrived at about 4am.. Was like a hungry dog! Heehee. Glad he gobbled up lots of the leftovers.
But was too tired to entertain them.. So i slept.. Till 4pm just now =P

Oh yah! The Avanza’s here =D Hmm.. Not bad la. Satisfied…
Woke up juz now, & was so happy. Dear bought me the turqoise cheongsam top which I loved so much! =D *hugs* *thanx dear!!!* *hugs hugs hugs*
& again.. House chores to do.. =( *lazy*

Tata..!

-= z~may =-

This time, this place.
Misused, mistakes.
Too long, too late.
Who was I to make you wait..?
Just one chance,
Just one breath.
Just in case there’s just one left.
Cause you know,
you know, you know…

That I love you… I have loved you all along. And I miss you…  Been far away for far too long. I keep dreaming you’ll be with me, and you’ll never go. Stop breathing if I don’t see you anymore…

On my knees, I’ll ask,
Last chance for one last dance.
Cause with you, I’d withstand,
All of hell to hold your hand…
I’d give it all,
I’d give for us.
Give anything but I won’t give up…
Cause you know,
you know, you know…

That I love you… I have loved you all
along. And I miss you…  Been far away for far too long. I keep
dreaming you’ll be with me, and you’ll never go. Stop breathing if I
don’t see you anymore…

So far away… Been far away for far too long
So far away… Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know…

I wanted… I wanted you to stay. Cause I needed, I need to hear you say… "That I love you, I have loved you all along"… And I forgive you… For being away for far too long…  So keep breathing, cause I’m not leaving you anymore. Believe it, hold on to me and never let me go.

-= Nickelback =-

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don’t bother me. I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out. I’m not afraid to cry. Every once in a while, even though goin on with you gone still upsets me. There are days every now and again i pretend i’m okay, but that’s not what gets me.

What hurts the most, was being so close. And having so much to say and watchin you walk away. Never knowing, what could have been. And not seein that lovin you, is what i was tryin to do.

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you, everywhere i go. But i’m doin it. It’s hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i’m alone. Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regret. But i know if i could do it over, I would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspoken. 

What hurts the most, was being so close.
And having so much to say and watchin you walk away. Never knowing,
what could have been. And not seein that lovin you, is what i was tryin
to do.

Not seein that lovin you
that’s what I was tryin to do…

–>> i love this song.. I’m so bored.. Was doing house chores, n trying not to fall asleep.. So i sneaked up here.. *wink* Most productive thing today? Hmm.. *yawn* Oh, CK brought his puppy retreiver!! *Weee* Babysitting it for him for a few days.. *squeeze* *squeeze* *hug* *hug* =P

–>> K.. Gtg.. *yawn* Bake our traditional CNY Butter cookies! Yum yum~ =D

-= z~may =-
 

Push the button

Push the button

Push the button

Push the button 

I’m busy throwing hints that he keeps missing. Don’t have to think about it. I Wanna kiss and everything around it but he’s too distant. I wanna feel his body, I can’t resist it.

I know my hidden looks can be deceiving. But how obvious should a girl be? I was taken by the early conversation piece, and I really like the way that he respect me.

I’ve been waiting patiently for him to come and get it. I wonder if he knows that he can say it and I’m with it. I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning. Catch this opportunity so you and me could feel it ‘cos

If you’re ready for me boy, you’d better push the button and let me know. Before I get the wrong idea and go. You’re gonna miss the freak that I control.

I’m busy showing him what he’s been missing. I’m kind of showing off for his full attention. My sexy ass has got him in the new dimension. I’m ready to do something to relieve this mission.

After waiting patiently for him to come and get it. He came on through and asked me if I wanted to get with him. I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning. Won’t miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it ‘cos

If you’re ready for me boy, you’d better
push the button and let me know. Before I get the wrong idea and go.
You’re gonna miss the freak that I control.

I’ve been dropping so many hints. You’re still not getting it. Now that you’ve heard everything I have to say. Where we gonna go from here?

–>> Cute song!

Ta-Daaa!! Ere i am blogging again! After so long! =)

First.. HAPPY 2006!! *hopefully..*
Decembers are always my favorite month.. Esp the last week =) Datz
why my blog was neglected, no time! =P The week where, the bondings of ALL close
friends and family.. =)

Celebrated my 21st birthday with collegemates in advance, BBQ nite!

- Just to chill out with them, know i’m gonna miss them so much.. Had
fun.. They gave me a memorable nite =) ~thanx, u know who u r! *wink* ~
Although.. Sad that sum close ones culdnt make it =( Stupid bimbo.. And
Ken.. =(

Love all you peeps! Lots lots lots..

Had advance christmas buffet dinner with family.. =D Yummy~


They were so sweet, announced a personal pre-birthday wish for me.. So
the pianist played a song for me.. =) Adults seldom do that nowadays..
*touched* =)

On the real Christmas day, another round of gaining weight.. But the
food was superb!! The traditional gathering in aunt’s place.. *slurp*
A more detailed version –>> Cheryl’s Christmas Corner

Then, the day I’ve
been waiting for the whole year!! Full BestBuddies Gathering!!
Every
year, this is the best time for the 6 of us.. Although itz me &
PJin’s birthday, but i’m excited not bcoz of it, but bcoz of our
spirits and excitements to this gathering.. ~Guys, its you ppl who
thought me the real meaning of friendship and all its extend. From
laughter to sadness~ =)
Well, we had dinner at Planet Hollywood…

and catch up everythin that we’ve left behind.. All I can remember is tonnes of laughter =D They’re crazy I tell you.. Really really really crazy… Thatz one of the reasons I love them! Heehee!

Then went to Irene’s hse for the surprise cake! *Aauw*

& our favorite opening pressie time! =)

See what i meant crazy.. Seriously, they’re nutz! Presents also, crazy presents.. haha! Love my crazy nutters!  Newy, I got them each girls’ boxers from Topshop! =D

K K, enuf of them! If i continue, I’ll never stop.. Nexttt… Nadira’s birthday! She’s my cousin’s cousin.. which means.. My cousin too? I also dunno.. Neway, we had karaoke at Timesquare.. My first time! Nice! Then, went to the theme park there.. Ergh.. First time i puked at the amusement park.. coz of one of the stupid rides.. Clearer pics.. —> CheryL’s Corner again

The next day.. is the end of 2005… As usual, with my nutters. Had steamboat.. and chilled till countdown.. Well, we don’t really bother bout countdown nemore.. Not like where we used to get stuck in the crowd n scream our lungs out. Just wanna spend time together..
Later that night i dropped by at Ken’s.. The whole gang was there.. =) Had karaoke session, drinking session.. OMG.. played mafia.. played the pyramid game.. played the dare game.. Drink drink drink till so drowsy! But, i will not let history repeat… Dont wanna get drunk again in Ken’s hse on NewYear’s eve!! *phobia* Feelings’ just right.. So typsy! So so so so headache & dizzy & everything seems so funny although it’s not.. hahaha.. We did stupid things.. Yah.. Stupid things =)
Bye-bye 2005, bittersweet memories…

Now! The 1st week of 2006.. Hmm.. nothin much. May gave me sum data entry job to do at home.
Which is quite mafarn! 1buck is not easy to earn ok! hehe, but i’m so free anyway. So nvm la.
Met WengWah dat day.. =) It’s nice to have a comfy feeling where u can chat about almost everythin to someone not so close yet.. =)
Went to see Anne & TT dat day =) & chatted chatted chatted =)
Oh ya! Hopefully our trip to Redang works out in Feb.. Really wanna go sumwhr with them! *pray*
Oh! At least there’s still a trip confirmed In 2 weeks time, goin to this jungle with my nutters, in this place called Serendah… Checked it online, itz damn cool wey! =) Only us girls.. Oooo.. *scary*

*Yawn*.. my gosh.. cant finish blabbing.. Shall blab more next time.. *yawns again* ~tears in my eyes~.. Gonna disturb Jasmine now.. Heeheehee haahaahaa.. Nights..!

-= z~may =-