~Jumbled Up Thoughts II~

I’m hungry.
And I’m bored.
And I have tonnes of work to do.
I’m cold.
But comfortable.
In campus lab now. Again.
May’s on my left.
Ray’s on my right.
Gaston James Devonne Hiew are also here.
Staying till 3 am again.
My books and papers are flooded all over the place.
We each have a cup. With warm drinks.
Coffee, Tea, Milo…
Listening to Ray’s mp3.
Title: I’m so sick of Love Song by Frankie J.
Reminds me of my dear…
He loves that song.
Finance International 302 is driving me insane.
Going BBQ shopping with Heng tomorrow.
May & Fa-Chiang’s birthday this weekend.
FoooooD!
Trying to save money…
Haven’t been eating properly =(
Had maggi only whole day since supper yesterday.
Hungry.
Eric Lim called to chat just now.
Feel grateful my close friends do call me once in a while =)
Cheryl sent me pictures of them at Midvalley today.
Feel left out.
But so funny seeing them. Ha-ha.
Miss them so much…
Miss home.
Can’t wait to get back.
38 more days.
Wonder whats YH doing now.
At some beauty pageant thingy with Anne…
Teetee Mike and Eric hanging out in Subang.
Wonder what will I be doin if I was in Subang.
Listening to my all time favorite Nickleback’s Faraway.
Love the lyrics.
May look so stressed up since just now.
Ray look so busy.
Feel bad for hijacking his mp3…
But he insist I use.
Haha.
At least he’s not so grumpy already now.
Finished some of his work.
Read my other blog just now.
Entries of few years back.
So many things I don’t remember.
When i read back…
Laughed so much.
But also, felt a twitch reading bitter memories.
Things change.
Good and bad.
Everything happen for a reason i Believe.
Think I’ll stop now.
Just finding reasons not to read those boring work I have.
K, stop here I shall…

-= z~may =-

Somewhere between the procrastination and the homework
and the incessant forwards and the friendships and the calls
to each other complaining about Crushes and Boyfriends or Girlfriends..
Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends
and the "I miss you’s", the "I love you’s" and the "What are we doing tonight?"
and somewhere between all of the changing and growing…

Somewhere between the classes and the skipping classes
and the Studying for tests
and the PRETENDING to "Study" for tests
and the downright NOT studying for tests
I forgot… I forgot what School was all about…

Somewhere between all the appointments, Starbuck Coffee, and Mc Donald’s…
Paying bills and then not paying bills
Making plans then breaking plans
Appearing, Disappearing, then Reappearing…
I forgot… I forgot what it was like to cry…

I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn’t make you happy…
And that pretending to be smart doesn’t make you smart…
I forgot that you can’t just forget the PAST and fear of the FUTURE…
I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget
are the things which we most need to talk about…
I learned that sometimes the ..*things you want most you just can’t have..*
and the things that *you look for are right in front of you..*
I forgot that you can’t control falling in LoVe..
And that you can’t make yourself fall in LoVe…
I learned that I can *LOVE*…

I learned that it’s okay to MEsS UP….
And it’s okay to ask for HELP..
And it’s okay to feel like CraP…
I learned it’s okay to CoMpLaIn
and WHiNE to all your friends for a whole day…

I learned that the greatest thing about
High School and College and the working world
isn’t about the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the HooKuPs …
It’s the *FrIeNdShIpS*, which means taking chances.

I learned that TIME and LOVE can heal all things…
I learned that just when you think it can’t get worse - it does! …
but with the love and support of friends - you survive…
I’ve learned that when you start feeling BaD
about L O S I N G touch and about those that you’ve lost..
They too, are feeling the same way….
I learned that letters from friends are the most important things.
And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better!

But, basically, I just learned that my friends…….. Both old and new…..
are the most important people to me in the world AND…….without them,
I wouldn’t be who I am today…..

Life’s boring…
Everything here’s so… Quiet… Slow… and… Boring…
Miri sucks BIG time…
But then again… not all the time la… *contradicting*
Think I’m more disciplined here compared back in Subang…
Accounting 308: One assignment handed in today, another one more to go…
Finance 302: Presentation this coming Tuesday *stressss*
This sem’s quite relaxing… But next sem I’ll jump off the highest building in Miri…
The boredom forces me to study… Good or bad point?
Subang… Too much temptation there…
The entertainment… The friends.. The food… My dogs… etc…

At lab now, with James, Gaston & Raymond…
So weird looking.. We each hold a cup into lab…
To make "Sabah tea" while we study…
But here I am blogging *guilty*
Had dinner at Ray/Gas’s place ystrdy & today…
They’re damn superb cooks! *yummy*

Bored bored bored…
Cant wait to get back home…
Gosh.. So bored till did some stupid quiz James showed me..
He’s Charlie Brown & I’m Sponge Bob.. What the… Why am i a sponge? *grunts*
Charlie Brown:- You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mum every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few birthdays. Don’t let your passion confuse you with reality.
Sponge Bob Square Pants:- You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never want to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it’s funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people, then you will be stress free.
…Agree to the last sentence. Ppl who gets jealous tooo easily… irritates me..

11.56am now… Hungry already =P
The prawns in my stomach are digested already i think…
Hmmm.. Kolok mee at 3am later? *hehe* Datz wat we do for supper here la..
Bored bored bored… May’s at KeyMin’s place now…
Some people turning 21 soon =D Looking forward for the BBQ dis Fri…
Gonna torture the birthday boy and girl… *wuahaha*

K la… Shall go read more of James’ stupido emails…
Tata Bloggie…

-= z~may =-

Exactly a week ago, our accident took place…
On the way to the airport, Heng was saying… "This road very well known for ‘dirty’ stuff, many unexplainable accidents and lots of people died here before"
On the way back from the airport… we remembered clearly how slowly our Kancil was going.
But the car just lost control… Just like that!
Swirved to the opposite direction… May tried to break, but it got worst.
All I remembered was the car swayed to the left, banged a white Hilux…
Then my world went tumbling upside down… and bing bing bang bang.

Scariest minutes of my life, but at least now we can joke and talk about it…
It’s true when they say, "The few minutes before you thought you’re gonna die, images of the most important things in life will come flashing in your mind" 
Only then, did I realize who are the important people in my life…
Only then, did I realize who creates the biggest impacts to me…
Only then, did I realize I might not be able to see my loved ones again…
Only then, did I realize I might not be able to say things that I’ve been longing to tell…
But funny though, we were not afraid of death…
May & I wasn’t afraid of dying… Wasn’t afraid of pain… Or that we’re not ready to go yet.
Was expecting to land in pieces… Was expecting more pain, more bangs when the car tossed and turned.
How many times the car turned, I dont know.
When or how did it whacked into the 2 other Wiras, I don’t know.
All I knew I performed lots of gymnastic stunts… and summersaults.
But Thank God, when I opened my eyes, I was facing the beautiful sky.
I was about 10 feet away from the car, lying on the road…
Didn’t know how I came off from the backscreen…
And Thank God, May and Heng crawled out from the "turtled" car to safety.
God knows what happened. Till now we were still wondering how it happened.
Muscleaches, bumps, scratches and bruises are nothing to us now..
It’s a miracle how we came out with no major injuries…
May’s thigh and toe… Is still pain, black and ugly. Ha-ha.

Don’t wanna talk bout it nemore.
There were many many wonderful things that happened though =D
My dear has been fantastic. An angel sent to me =)
Maxine’s stay here during free week was fun =) She gave us a surprise, notty girl. Missing her already =(
Had few drinking nights, and did stupid things Ha-ha! Don’t ask.

—> Heng’s  Anonymous’ "hair"

—> James… Toes lickin good.

—> My sexy dear strikes again =P

—> Haha.

—> The survivors.

—> And the cuckoos.

Oh yah, Happy Belated Birthday to Heng again.. Had another crazy drinking night again with you guys. =)

Now, back to studies again, week free’s over. Weee heee..! My hubby and grandson’s here to pick me up =D *lucky*
Bye people!

-= z~may =-