~Jumbled Up Thoughts II~

I lurrrvee this song… The chorus is from Tatu’s Gomenasai.. Which i love too..!
Sad & meaningful lyrics… *sob* *sob*   - Don’t do this!! -

Happy Birthday… so make a wish…

Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been…
Would you’ve been a little angel or an angel of sin?
Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys?
Or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes?
I paid for the murder before they determined the sex,
Choosing our life over your life, meant your death.
And you never got a chance to even open your eyes
Sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you fought for your life?
Would you have been a little genius, in love with math?
Would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad?
Would you have been a little rapper like your papa da Piper?
Would you have made me quit smokin’ by finding one of my lighters?
I wonder about your skintone and shape of your nose…
And the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow?
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen…
Happy birthday, love you whoever you woulda been
Happy birthday…

All I thought was a dream, (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed… (happy birthday)
All I thought was a dream, (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed…
I made a mistake!

I’ve got a millon excuses to why you died…
Bet the people got their own reasons for homicide.
Who’s to say it woulda worked, and who’s to say it wouldn’t have?
I was young and strugglin’ but old enough to be your dad,
The fear of being a father has never disappeared,
Pondering frequently while I’m sippin’ on my beer…
My vision of a family was artificial and fake,
So when it came time to create I made a mistake…
Now you’ve got a little brother, maybe he’s really you?
Maybe you really forgave us knowin’ we was confused?
Maybe everytime that he smiles it’s you proudly knowin’ that your father’s doin’ the right thing now?
I never tell a woman what to do with her body,
But if she don’t love children then we can’t party…
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen…
Happy birthday, love you whoever you woulda been
Happy birthday…

All I thought was a dream, (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed… (happy birthday)
All I thought was a dream, (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed…
I made a mistake!

And from the heavens to the womb to the heavens again
From the endin’ to the endin’, never got to begin
Maybe one day we could meet face to face?
In a place without time and space
Happy birthday…